Whats right and whats wrong? What are the dos and donts? I really dont know.

Looking back all the memories we have created, they were mostly unhappy ones. Most of the days were filled with anger and argument. However, I chose to forgive you because Christ has forgiven me, in the same manner, I hope you forgive whatever wrong I have done to you in the past. Seeing you with your new girlfriend, I am truly happy for both of you. God bless you both :)

P.S.: If you ever happen to drop by and see this post. Take care.

You have no idea how those words hurt me until this very day and moment. Best thing is that you never mind even saying sorry, like what you always used to be. And you will always be like that. Thank you for making my life miserable.

YEONG SEEM YEE PLEASE STAY FOCUS!
F.O.C.U.S!

Lord please heal me of all my physical discomfort, I want to trust in You and find peace and rest in You, Amen.

Frustrated

Rushing three assignments in one day ain't fun at all. Plus my back is so painful now... I wonder when will all these come to an end :'(

Letting go.

Last month, today. And this is what God told me today:

Letting go of the past is not easy, especially if you have wounds that have never properly healed. But, the past is past and living there may be preventing you from fully experiencing the present. Likewise fear of what may be looming around the corner can also prevent you from fully enjoying the present. Live in the moment and look forward to eternity with God, now that's a great present.

Thank You for your unfailing love, and I will put my confidence in You always. I love you Jesus.

Must I cry myself to sleep every night? I'm exhausted from crying...

It ended where we started... Strangers, again. But am thankful to know you and you taught me many things, I know one day when I look back I am still thankful no matter how painful it seems to be right now. Wish you all the best in life. Take care.

My life is screwed up.

"I love you"?

"I love you" only when you behave.

"I love you" when you do things according my way.

"I love you" when you don't go against me.

"I love you" when you say only nice things about me.

"I love you" when you are emotional stable.

"I love you" when you don't bug me and give me least inconveniences.

"I really love you".

I feel so miserable right now. Everything is a mess right now. I don't feel loved by you nor my family, especially mum. Perhaps, some wounds just won't heal. Those bad memories come back once in a while to haunt you. I am so tired to have to pretend that I am strong. Pretend that I am ok, pretend that everything is fine. I am tired...

And you, who are you trying to please? Everyone? I wish you would just disappear from my life, because I don't like you at all.

Can't stop crying, I wonder how long I can stand...

Anger management

As I grow older, I slowly realised that I can't act like a kid nor talk like a kid. Sometimes when you happen to be very very angry, you don't bang the door or throw things because you know you're an adult, not a kid anymore.

Recently, I really have a problem with that. I feel so suffering to hold all that anger inside and I dont know where to release them. Sometimes I become so angry that I keep accusing myself for being angry and cry my heart out under the blanket. Can anyone tell me how should I handle them in a christian way? Cuz its really wearing me out.

Thank You

His is my Comforter.

At fragile times, when I feel so small and useless,

I look to my Father who call me His own.

And I know, I can always turn to Him for comfort and He gladly shelter me and gently whisper

'I love you like no one else...'

Thank you for the comfort my Lord and Saviour.

Beauty of imperfection...

Love me tender, love me sweet
Never let me go
You have made my life complete
And I love you so

Love me tender, love me true
All my dreams fulfill
For, my darling I love you
And I always will.

Love me tender, love me dear
Tell me you are mine
I'll be yours through all the years
'Till the end of time

Love me tender, love me true
All my dreams fulfill
For, my darling I love you
And I always will

Love me tender, love me true
All my dreams fulfill
For, my darling
I love you

And I always will
Always will

by Norah Jones

Give me...

Give me strength, for I am weak...

like a flower that bloom and wither.

Give me assurance, for I am fearful...

not knowing what the future would bring.

Give me direction, for I am lost...

like a ship sailing without a compass.

Give me hope, for I am staring at the dark night sky,

wishing to catch a glimpse of you...perhaps.

I made this few months ago, may not up to the standard but felt like expressing myself in a poem during the time of sadness...and it work for me. Hope you like it. God bless :)

ha!

Ha! Haha! Hahaha!!! I'm back.......................................heeeeeeeha~ yea, I sot already because i just finished my second semester! (literally) Its not finish yet, but gonna have another paper tomorrow. English communication. Ah...who is gonna study for that. Dont care =D Feeling exhausted now cuz just came back from midvalley. Went there had lunch with friends and tried to look for a suitable gown for wedding dinner and orchestra concert...those dresses were really expensive T.T but they are really beautiful.
Oh yea, I did something embarrassing before entering exam hall this morning.
Okay, before sitting for exam, you will need to have your student id and an exam token. So, bofore I step in to the exam hall, I showed those two things to the examiner there. And when I was ready to set my foot on the hall, one of the examiner said: "Eh, we don't have maybank here la lady..." Then when I look at it only I know I shown him my maybank atm card @..@ After that I ran all the way from block c to block a to get my temporarily student id... zzz lol...
Anyway, after tomorrow, I'm gonna be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I've waited it for so long XD And I 'm so glad that I'm going home...after for two months... *sob sob*

Seven Wonders...

Hey people, I'm back...again! lol Just a little bit of updates here... Been doing fine... Still in good condition despite all the assignments and homeworks. Midterms around the corner...seven wonders of the ancient world is coming out for midterm test. Well, I've always HATED HISTORY...especially the one I had during secondary school... yacksss!!! But not this time...started to love history though after reading about seven wonders. You know what, among the wonders I love The Hanging Garden of Babylon the most.


It was built by King Nebuchadnezzar II for his wife because his wife's homesickness. King Nebuchadnezzar II selected plants and tress of his wife's homeland in order to please her... wow... can you imagine if one day your the other half build a garden just to please you?

I want one!!! XD
kidding la... =P

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year! Blessed New Year! Hohohoh XD
...hmmm is there anyone still reading my blog? hmmm... after three months of absence? hahaha anyway, I'm doing fine... life in university is good... enjoying what I'm doing... =D
By His grace and unfailing love I've gone through first semester! And I'm still on the journey of learning many things in life...and in this new year, I wish you (whoever is reading this) a very blessed new year =) Yea you XD

One of my favourite song...

Fear by Casting Crowns

Oh, what I would do to have the kind of faith it takes

To climb out of this boat I'm in onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone into the realm of the unknown

Where Jesus is, and he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me

Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed

The waves they keep on telling me time and time again

"Boy, you'll never win, you'll never win, you'll never win."

Oh, what I would do to have the kind of strength it takes

To stand before a giant with just a sling and stone

Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors shaking in their armour

Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me

Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed

The giant keeps on telling me time and time again

"Boy you'll never win, you'll never win, you'll never win."

But the stone was just the right size to take the giant down

And the waves don't seem so high when I'm standing on top of them looking down

And I'd soar with the wings of eagles if I could just ignore the sound

Of the waves and the giants, the waves and the giants in my mind

Lord, you've not given me a spirit of fear

But of power and of love, and of a sound mind

So from now on, I won't let the tempter's lies turn my eyes away from the prize

That you have set before me.

That you have set before me.

Life without Him is indeed...meaningless.

lost and found XD

Muahahahahahaha I'm back!!! lol sorry for the long absence. Find myself lazy to update my blog =P I'm doing fine. And I've moved to KL for studies already. At last....... XD Taking foundation in architectural studies in UCSI... just move in to the school hostel yesterday. Brought a lot of stuff and I'm staying at the highest floor... @.@ So after settling down I went and check out the toilet...then I saw some 'objects' floating in the toilet bowl... lol By the way, I'm still 'roommateless' at the moment XD

This is how my room looks like... (just cleaned it up)

the corridor... room door...
Today was my first day of school. First class is at 8 in the morning... Woke up late...was so panic... Thought gonna miss bus...but the bus came late too *phew* It was kinda rush so didnt take breakfast then straight away go to the auditorium. Sitting in there wondering how my lecturer look like...then after five minutes, a lady came in and told the us :" the lecturer couldnt make it for lecture today...so class dismiss" At first I was like... =_________________________=" then after that I was like... XD *yay! enjoy breakfast* muahahahahaha... After that ended up in my room doing nothing... great =..=.